It seems to me that a lot of podcasts that started back in 2006 that I loved have mostly all fizzled out (like mine). Those that stuck with it are now, well, rather internet-famous, such as The RopeCast and Poly Weekly. Those that didn’t… well, we’ve faded to oblivion for the most part, though there are a few that are trying to make a comeback, such as Ellie Lumpesse’s Bedroom Radio and my own, Sacred and Shameless Sexcast (though she’s doing a bit better with hers than I am with mine).

Basically after a very long break I started up again a few months ago, but that has fizzled out as well. My last cast Anal, P.S. It’s Fabulous was about two months ago, and although I’ve thought about doing more casts they just haven’t happened.

So, the question I’ve been asking myself lately is what do I do about it?

One thing is that I’m going to lose the story part of the cast. I originally was trying to have three sections to the sexcast: an information section on whatever the topic was, a sex toy review on something that correlated with the information given, and an erotic story which may or may not correlate with the other two. Now, this worked out okay for the first few casts, when I was excited about it and had the time to make them frequently. However, lately this has been trouble. I find myself dissatisfied with all the erotica I write, and mostly because I’m not very confident in myself as a writer. So, I’m going to bag that part whatever I do.

The other options I’ve been toying with are to just retire the cast entirely and start something completely new, maybe a femmeinist fucktoy cast or something, or just revamp the cast entirely while keeping the original episodes attached to it, but not as much a part of it. I’m not sure what I’m going to do at this point. On the one hand, when I was making casts I really loved them, they’re as much for me as for anyone else, and they are really fun to do. On the other hand, I don’t seem to have the time to do them anymore, but I potentially could if I was to specifically put aside one night a week to do it, using the rest of the nights to work up my topic and all that.

I’m just not sure. If I keep it The Sacred and Shameless Sexcast as I originally dubbed it my next cast will need to be on sacred sexuality. I’m not against that, I just don’t feel like an authority on it yet. But, then, I’m not sure if I’ll ever feel like an authority, but I can always tell my ideas about it, and maybe that’s enough.

If I changed it, what would I change it to? I guess that’s the question that I can’t answer, and if I could I may have changed it already. I do love the alliteration in the name, and being able to call it SSS, but, then again, it doesn’t really emphasize where my head is right now. My head is on gender, feminism, equality, identities, bdsm, submission, cuntpet-hood, Topping, and all sorts of things, perhaps things that can be fit into both sacred and shameless but not necessarily things that automatically come to mind with the two. Or maybe they are? I’m just not sure.

I’m just so unsure of where I want to go with it. Perhaps that’s what I should figure out first? Do I want to keep it the way it is, change it completely, or do I just need to get rid of it? I think getting rid of it is less of an option than the others, I just need to dedicate myself and my time to it in a more structured manner. But which of the first two do I choose? Hmm…